(A journal entry from one year ago)
"Angela, focus. Why are your heart and mind so far away? Yeah, you remember feeling so hurt, broken, lonely, tired, lost all these years. But do you ALSO remember your prayers? Remember chasing after God and finding the comfort and love you've been missing in your life? Remember the miracles He has shown you without you even asking? Remember the joy He gave you when you gave your all to Him? Angela, REMEMBER. Even when things hurt, never forget His goodness. He has been the light in the darkness this entire time. He is always and constantly blessing you—giving you everything you need and more. He loves you, so delight in Him."
Last year, God helped me recognize that my self-worth was tainted. My heart had been shattered by things of this world, and I believed it could never be mended. But God reminded me that He longs to heal me and cleanse my heart, and with the power of prayer, He revealed Himself to me in ways that I could never imagine. My first two years of college was solely focused on always seeking Him. My priority was finding Him in every situation I ran into, YET my faith always wavered... But I realized that even though my faith shakes, the One I put my faith IN is UNSHAKABLE, and that gave me so much peace. By learning to stand firm in my faith and to fully surrender to Him, God answered my prayers for steadfastness.
This year, I have been exposed to Jesus in new and greater ways. I am learning how to be used well to expand His kingdom. I have never been more confident in who I am, and despite any challenges I face, I am overflowing with joy because my LIFE and IDENTITY are now firmly rooted in Him. I know I will always have so much more to learn and to grow, but I declare that Christ is my SAVIOR and that I commit every day to choosing Him.