I have always struggled with understanding God’s love.
I knew how great and how amazing His love was for me, but for some reason my heart and my head never matched up. It wasn’t until recently, I was constantly reminded that God is SO REAL and that He has been purposefully placing people into my life.
This quarter, I have constantly been praying about how I can use the gifts that He has given me to help reconnect people with God. However, I was stuck and I was afraid. I did not grow up in a Christian household, and I felt like I was not knowledgeable enough to be mentoring someone else. I had no experience with worship, yet I felt God calling me to serve there. It was not until after church one day, I felt compelled to go up to the Pastor and say hi to him. We greeted each other, but instead of asking me how I was doing, or how my day was going, he started talking about an analogy.
He said, “Imagine yourself flying a kite. When you fly a kite, you have to control and make sure the kite is a certain distance away from you, right? That’s you right now, but that’s not what God wants. You are afraid of letting go and you keep a safe distance away from Him. Instead, think of yourself as a child holding a bundle of balloons. Like a child thinking that they can float if they jump with the balloons, YOU need to just jump."
Right there and then, this heaviness in me that has been built up over time was lifted and I felt God’s presence. I think we all need a reminder sometimes of how unwavering and unconditional His love is for us. 1 Corinthians 13:7 says “Love never gives up on people. It never stops trusting, never loses hope, and never quits."
So at the end of the day, what is there really to fear, when you know that you have Him by your side?